I didn't plan on this to happen. It just did.This winter has been particularly hard for my body. No one seems to know why or what is causing it, well, except from my other 99 problems. I was having so much trouble with my back and my neck, I was in constant pain and all I wanted to do was throw up and sleep. Painkillers just took the edge off, heating bottles worked while the water was still hot. I was desperate, so I started stretching. Flat on the floor, just trying to get some relief from the pain. Pressure balls, my fists, anything that could help - I was trying it.
At first, I started using my wife's foam roller to try and crush knots in my upper back and neck. It seemed to work, but only while I was doing it. As soon as I stopped, the pain returned. I experimented with different poses and ended up in what I now know is called a plough in the yogi-world. It was the most comfortable I had been in months. So, I just started hanging out in the plough position, not knowing why it worked and not caring. It was working. It was instant pain relief, and I just wanted to stay like that forever. That's about two months ago.
Now, I'm using my body for good every day. I've slowly been changing my daily routines, sneaking in mindful moments and meditative breaks throughout the day. Working on my breath and stretching muscles that's been hibernating for years. It's been hard, and it will still be hard - but I've decided it's worth it. Short term and long term.
I have fallen in love. I never thought it would happen to me again, especially since I'm still in love and married to the love of my life. Ida is totally fine with it, btw - we have a very open relationship like that. I'm dating Yoga, and it's getting serious, fast. We've only just met, like two months ago, but I can already tell we're soul mates.
I can't change my history, but I can learn from it. I accept my past and I embrace my present. Maybe I'll share this journey with you, maybe I wont, but for the first time in years I'm inspired to write something. And I have what I can only assume is that thing everyone calls "hope". Now that's something!